Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Today markes 37 months since my cousin Mike was murdered. He was 37 when he died. I went up to visit his grave for a few hours yesterday and even though I deal with this all of the time, I still cry as if it just happened yesterday. Of course some days are better than others, it still hurts so deep in my heart that I have a hard time breathing. I ask myself when this feeling will go away. When it's been 5 years, 10? Or am I going to have this ache in the middle of my heart forever?
Losing him was hard enough, but knowing that whoever killed him is still out there and knowing that there is SOMEONE out there that knows what happened and they are keeping quiet is almost too much to have to bare. And I am only Mike's cousin. I cannot even imagine how my Aunt feels. Murder is so unfair! You don't get to say goodbye, you don't get to know what happened, some people treat you like if they get too close they will "Catch murder" and there are a host of other emotions that I don't even want to get started with.
Mike was my cousin. I loved him. He was a real person with a real life, hopes, dreams, etc. and I am angry someone took that away. Mike had a great sense of humor and I miss him constantly picking on me. I miss his stories. I miss the way he would always tell me to "simmer down" or "behave" when I wasn't doing anything, but he knew I was thinking about it!
Please- if you know ANYTHING!! Anything at all about what happened to Mike, please email me or call the tip line. (please see billboard photo). Knowing why and/or who will ease at least some of the pain!
Posted by Belinda Puchajda at 8:19 PM